This time of year is hard for many of us. With the short dark days I feel seasonal affective disorder or SAD. I have to fight it hard.
I grew up in a bootstrap family, deal with it, suck it up. It’s believed to give you resilience, mostly it’s dismissive and it makes you feel as though you’re a burden. You don’t want to feel this way, it just seems impossible to feel any other way.
Depression comes in many forms from mild- where you lose interest in things you used to enjoy, to crippling- where everything’s hard and you just can’t function. Depression can be chronic or brought on by difficult circumstances. I’ve battled bouts of depression in my life. It usually meant me lying in bed all day for months on end, numb. Everything seems so meaningless, empty. There’s an intense heaviness like you’re wearing your emotions and it’s exhausting. Depression fucking sucks. If you feel this way, do seek help. Overcoming depression takes time but you need assistance to heal and there’s no shame in that, it’s not your fault. Repeat it to yourself over and over until you believe it “it’s not my fault”. For me cannabis is green sunshine, my brain brightens up and I escape there. But I have to be mindful which strain I use and how much I take.
Cannabis can be used as a therapeutic treatment for depression but the dose is important.
THC in clinical studies for depression show low doses of THC increased serotonin however high doses caused a decrease in serotonin that can worsen the condition. CBD taken with low doses of THC, such as a 20:1 has shown to be effective in treating anxiety and depression.
If you’re already using cannabis to treat depression and are finding you’re symptoms are starting to get worse, you may need to reduce your THC intake and up your CBD.
If you or someone you know is battling depression, cannabis may be a tool you can add to your toolbox for finding balance again. Talk to your healthcare practitioner to see if it’s right for you.